Someone once said "Always go with the decision thay will make for the better story" and it basically became my mantra. Since then I've had a couple near-death experiences and a few nights i wouldn't trade for anything.
"The problem, often not discovered until late in life, is that when you look for things like love, meaning, motivation, it implies they are sitting behind a tree or under a rock. The most successful people recognize, that in life they create their own love, they manufacture their own meaning, they generate their own motivation." ~Neil deGrasse Tyson in his AMA